Hello I am back to blog about my boring life.
I've been through alot lately. Especially from November till to date, I am still going through some personal matters.
One of the matters, would be that I am single and available again. After one year, things are still not working out the way I wanted. I got tired of arguing, explaining and changing. I think I try to change him in many ways too but it is all for his good but changing one person life is not easy and simple and may not be right as well. So we moved on.
Recently, I just saw a photo of A and his new gf on Facebook. Impacted me big time. I dedicated more than 4 years of my time on him and I still received a "NO" from him when I asked for a patchup. Hurt my pride and my feelings. Guys are **** up. It is okay. I move on. Now I truly treasure and appreciate my friends more than i used to and of course my all time favourite darling latte.
Just today, I lost my latte buddy over BGR issue. I listened to my mom's wise words. "take my time" I believe her and I knew the choice I made is right. It is also right choice for the both parties. Foresees the problems that might surface once we have settled down and having those ridiculous arguments and endless fights. He may give in to me most of the time but it wont make the matter go away.
He is a nice caring guy but I am of no condition to get attached. I should not hold him back. I apologised for all these times that I have misled him to this point. I think I am a boy at heart and a girl on the outside. I realised something funny, my relationship lasts longer when i love him more than he love me. I'm such a bitch. I don't know why I am like that. Mad woman. Asking for trouble and yet complain so much. Laughs.
All I know is that I want to train hard and get my dream body. Once I have achieved my goal and If a nice guy comes by when I ready for love, I will not hesitate and go for it.
Current Weight : 54.8 Kg
27th Jan Goal : 53.8 Kg
3rd Feb Goal : 52.8 Kg
10th Feb Goal : 51.5 Kg
Beauty Weight : 50 Kg
New week New weight goal. Must achieve my goals with the right eating habits and exercise regime. By end of 12th Feb, my true yoga membership is over. I may wanna try fitness first for a week to see if I can make full use of the membership cost. Lets work hard and train hard. :D
Adios my mates.